“The feelings weren’t a lie.” Her voice shook. “Everything else, yes. But not that. I love you.”
He closed his eyes briefly, as though her words cost him something to hear.
“Don’t,” he said softly. “Please. Not right now.”
“What is your name?”
Ruth almost tells him the truth. Almost.
But if Henry Foster learns who she really is, he may send her away—and she has nowhere else to go.
Ruth Turner escaped a forced marriage by taking another woman’s identity and traveling west as a mail-order bride. She believes God led her there. Henry, however, doesn’t believe in much anymore after the war took his family, grief shattered what remained of his faith, and the pain of losing everything left him convinced that love was not meant for him.
Then Ruth arrives. One month is all he gives her, but one month is enough for Ruth to win the trust of his grieving niece and awaken feelings Henry thought he had buried forever.
Then Henry discovers the truth. Before Ruth can explain, the man she escaped rides into town. He has found her.
Turner Ranch — Devil’s Hollow, Texas
Summer 1870
The garden, which had once stretched neat and green behind the Turner house, now looked more like a graveyard.
Ruth knelt on the cracked earth, brushing dirt from a stunted potato no bigger than the middle of her palm. Around her, rows that should have been bursting with summer vegetables lay wilted and brown beneath the relentless Texas sun. Weeks without proper rain had turned the soil hard as stone.
Folks in Devil’s Hollow liked to say the town had earned its name from the weather long before any of its residents arrived. Nestled in a shallow basin between rocky hills, the little settlement seemed to trap heat like a cast-iron oven. Summers were brutal even in good years. In bad years, the land baked beneath a merciless sun until the grass turned brittle and the creeks shrank to muddy trickles.
This year had been particularly cruel. The spring rains had come late and ended early. Day after day, cloudless skies stretched overhead. Every morning, Ruth awoke hoping to see dark clouds gathering on the horizon, only to find another day of blistering heat waiting for her.
She dropped the potato into her basket and moved further down the row.
A few cabbage heads had survived, though only barely. Their outer leaves were yellowed and shriveled, curled inward as if trying to protect themselves from the heat. She selected the best of them and cut it free.
The wicker basket still remained disappointingly light. Straightening, Ruth wiped a sleeve across her brow and surveyed the property. The sight never failed to make her heart ache.
The white paint on the small farmhouse had long since peeled away. Several shingles were missing from the roof. One section of fencing leaned so badly it looked ready to collapse altogether. Weeds crowded the yard where flowers had once grown.
Once, her father had told Ruth that her mother had loved flowers. He’d kept the gardens nice for her, even after she died. Ruth could still remember patches of bluebonnets and yellow daisies blooming beside the porch when she was little. Now, even those were gone.
A hot wind stirred her thick chestnut-brown braid as she stood looking at the place. It seemed everything around her was slowly dying.
Pushing the thought away, she turned toward the house. There was supper to make.
The kitchen was small and dim, but it remained Ruth’s favorite room.
A black cast-iron stove occupied one corner, its iron surface warm from the fire she’d coaxed to life earlier. Copper pots hung from pegs on the wall, polished from years of use despite their age. The scent of woodsmoke lingered in the air.
She set her basket on the table and examined its contents. Three potatoes and one small cabbage. Not much for a meal, but Ruth had grown used to working with what God provided. Setting a pot on the stove, she filled it with water and began peeling the potatoes.
The knife moved quickly in her practiced hands, and once the potatoes were in the pot and simmering, she crossed to the pantry.
The shelves were nearly bare. A small sack of flour sat in one corner. There was a jar containing the last spoonfuls of molasses and another holding a little salt. That was all.
Her gaze settled on the precious gifts Mrs. Harper had brought over that morning. Six eggs and a small pitcher of milk.
The elderly widow attended church with Ruth and seemed to possess an uncanny ability to know when help was needed. “God sees, child,” she had said while pressing the basket into Ruth’s hands. “Never forget that.”
Ruth smiled faintly at the memory. Without those gifts, supper would have consisted of little more than boiled vegetables. She carefully cracked two eggs into a bowl, added a splash of milk and some flour. She reached for the jar of salt and added a small pinch to the mixture. She returned to the kitchen carrying the bowl in her hands and placed it to the side. She would make the biscuits later, so that they were still warm when it came time for dinner.
Ruth turned her attention back to the stove where the potatoes were softened in the pot. She added some cabbage and stirred. It was simple food—plain, but food nonetheless. For that, she was grateful.
When everything was ready, she covered the dishes and moved her chair closer to the fireplace. The evening shadows had begun to lengthen.
Drawing her mending basket onto her lap, she selected a worn shirt belonging to one of the church families. The elbow had torn almost completely through. She threaded her needle and began stitching and the familiar rhythm steadied her thoughts. In, out, pull. In, out, pull.
Each repaired garment earned a few precious coins. Not many, but enough to keep them from complete starvation, at least for now.
The fire crackled softly. Outside, the sun slipped lower toward the horizon. Ruth bent over her work and her fingers moved automatically while her thoughts wandered.
Life had never been easy. Not that she remembered. Her mother had died bringing her into the world. Her father had never truly forgiven her for it and, as a child, she’d spent years trying to earn his affection. But nothing had ever been enough. Lately, things seemed to be growing worse by the day.
With the drought, the debts, and her father’s drinking, every month another possession disappeared. First the wagon, then the horses. The cow, and last week, her father had sold the chickens. The coop behind the house now stood empty and silent.
From her chair, Ruth’s gaze drifted toward the small structure visible through the kitchen window and the hollow in her stomach ached. Once, it had been full of life. Every morning she had scattered feed across the yard and watched the hens come running, feathers fluttering and feet kicking up little clouds of dust. She knew each bird by sight. The bossy red hen that always pecked first, the speckled one that liked to wander farther than the others, the old white hen that had survived more seasons than any of them. Their clucking had been such an ordinary sound that she’d scarcely noticed it until it was gone.
More than the eggs, she missed the feeling of abundance they had represented. A basket slowly filling throughout the week. Fresh eggs for breakfast. Something to trade with neighbors when times were hard. A small reassurance that tomorrow’s meal was already waiting in the nesting boxes.
Now, the coop sat abandoned beneath the sprawling oak tree, its door hanging slightly crooked. No soft clucking greeted the dawn. No feathers drifted across the yard. The nesting boxes stood empty, and the silence seemed to underline everything they had lost.
Like so many things on the farm, the chickens had been sold to satisfy one of her father’s debts. Their absence was a daily reminder that each month brought less than the one before. That the life her mother had once worked so hard to build was disappearing piece by piece.
A knot tightened in her chest as she laid the shirt aside for a moment. She reached beneath the collar of her dress and drew out the small silver cross hanging around her neck. The metal was worn smooth with age. It had belonged to her mother. It was the only thing Ruth possessed that had once been hers.
She wrapped her fingers around it and closed her eyes. “Father,” she whispered. The fire popped softly. “I don’t know what You’re doing,” her voice trembled. “But I know You’re there.” She swallowed. “I know You haven’t forgotten me.”
The silence that followed felt gentle rather than empty, like a hand resting quietly upon her shoulder. Tears stung briefly behind her eyes. “Please, help us.” Her fingers tightened around the cross. “Please provide what we need.”
A verse drifted into her thoughts, one Pastor Williams often quoted. Your Father knows what you need before you ask Him.
The knot inside her loosened a little. God knew. He always knew. Even when she couldn’t see the way forward. Even when everything appeared hopeless. He knew.
A measure of peace settled over her as she lowered the cross and carefully folded the garment she was holding. She placed it into her mending basket alongside the others she had completed that week. She closed the basket and set it beside the door for the morning.
Rising from her chair, she walked over to the bowl in the kitchen and mixed the biscuit ingredients together. The dough came together beneath her hands and she shaped it into small rounds before arranging them in a cast-iron skillet and sliding it carefully into the oven.
Soon, the kitchen filled with the warm, comforting scent of baking bread. Then, a few moments later came the unmistakable sound of stumbling footsteps crossing the porch. Ruth’s shoulders tensed.
She knew those footsteps, knew the uneven rhythm of them.
A wave of whiskey fumes entered before the man himself. Frank Turner stumbled into the house. His shirt hung half untucked and his face was flushed red beneath several days’ worth of beard. One hand caught the doorframe to steady him and the other clutched a nearly empty bottle.
The peace she’d found moments earlier evaporated as her father’s bloodshot eyes swept across the room and, for a brief instant, landed on her. There was no warmth or welcome in his gaze, only irritation, as though her very existence offended him. Then, his eyes shifted toward the stove.
“Well,” he slurred. “What measly offerings have you scraped together for me tonight?”
Ruth’s fingers tightened around the mending in her lap and a strange uneasiness settled over her. “Papa, I am glad you are home.”
Her father grunted in disbelief before he lurched toward the table, the smell of whiskey followed him like a shadow. “Hurry up, you stupid girl,” he snapped. “I am hungry.”
Ruth wasted no time, gathering the plates and cutlery and quickly setting the table. She then fetched the potatoes and placed them down. She crossed the kitchen to the stove and removed the tray of biscuits. When dinner was served, Ruth hovered near the window while her father pulled the serving bowl toward himself.
“Sit down,” he barked. “I don’t need you hovering over me like some old mother hen.”
Ruth did not need to be asked twice as she quickly took her seat.
Her father’s spoon scraped loudly against the pottery as he took the largest potatoes, most of the cabbage and nearly all of the biscuits. Ruth kept her eyes lowered. By now, the routine was familiar.
When he was sober, which was becoming increasingly rare, he hardly noticed her. When he was drunk, the smallest perceived slight could ignite his temper. So she made herself small and unremarkable. It was a skill learned over years of necessity.
When he finally shoved the bowl away, only a few scraps remained. Ruth sat down and gathered them onto her own plate. The food was barely enough to satisfy a child.
Still, she bowed her head. “Thank You for this meal,” she whispered. Then she ate.
Across the table, Frank drank directly from his bottle. Neither of them spoke and the silence between them felt older than the house itself. When her father finished, he pushed his chair back so abruptly it scraped across the floorboards.
Without a word, he grabbed the bottle and stalked toward the narrow hallway. A moment later, his bedroom door slammed and the thin walls of the house rattled. Ruth released a slow breath. At least the worst part of the evening was over.
She cleared the table and washed the dishes in a basin of warm water. Outside, darkness settled over the farm and the lonely cry of a whip-poor-will echoed somewhere beyond the fields.
When the kitchen was tidy, Ruth carried a candle down the hallway. Its small flame cast trembling shadows across the walls.
The farmhouse seemed even more worn at night. In places, the wallpaper had peeled away entirely and the floorboards creaked beneath her bare feet. A draft slipped through gaps around the windows.
Her room waited at the end of the hall. The narrow iron bed stood beneath a window overlooking the backyard. A faded quilt covered the mattress, pieced together years ago by her mother. Beside the bed sat a wooden washstand with a cracked pitcher and basin.
A single rocking chair occupied one corner and her Bible rested on the small bedside table. Along with a portrait—the only picture she possessed of her mother.
Ruth knew every detail by heart. Her mother gazed calmly toward the camera, her thick chestnut-brown hair pinned neatly beneath a bonnet. Even in the small photograph, the resemblance was unmistakable. The same gray eyes looked back at her whenever Ruth studied her own reflection. The same strong cheekbones and determined mouth.
Growing up, neighbors had often remarked that she looked more like her mother with every passing year—a comparison Ruth treasured, even as it deepened her father’s bitterness. Sometimes, when she stared at the portrait long enough, she imagined she could almost see herself reflected there.
Ruth carefully changed into her nightdress. The cotton fabric was thin from years of washing. Then, she brushed out her braid and let her hair fall over her shoulders.
She knelt beside the bed, the floorboards cool beneath her knees, and folded her hands. “Father,” she whispered. “Thank You for carrying me through another day.”
The words landed quietly, but her voice was steady. “Thank You for the food we had tonight, for the work You’ve given me, and for every kindness You’ve placed in my path.”
She paused, listening to the distant creak of the old house. The floorboards creaked somewhere down the hallway and, instantly, her body tensed.
For a moment she thought her father might be awake and a knot formed in her stomach as she listened for the unmistakable sound of his footsteps outside her door. More than once, he had mocked her for praying. On particularly bad nights, after too much whiskey, he would accuse her of wasting time on a God who had never done anything for either of them. Ruth had learned to keep her Bible close and her prayers quiet whenever he was home.
The house settled again and silence returned. Slowly, she released the breath she had been holding. “You know our needs before I speak them,” she continued, her voice barely above a whisper. “You know every burden in this home, every debt, every fear, and every sorrow.”
Her fingers reached for the small silver cross hanging at her neck. “I ask for strength, Lord. Not an easy road, but the strength to walk the one You’ve set before me. Help me to be patient when I am weary, kind when I am hurt, and faithful when I cannot see what lies ahead.”
Tears stung her eyes, but her voice did not waver. “Please watch over my father. Soften his heart and guide him back to Your light. Help me forgive where forgiveness is needed and show me how to honor You in all that I do.”
Moonlight spilled across the floorboards beside her bed. “I don’t know what tomorrow holds, but I know You hold tomorrow. And whatever comes, help me meet it with courage. And if there is a purpose for my life beyond what I can see today, help me trust Your timing.” She drew a slow breath. “Your will be done, Father. Amen.”
As Ruth climbed into bed, a quiet peace settled over her. The circumstances of her life had not changed, but neither had the God she served. And that, she reminded herself as she closed her eyes, was enough.
***
The next morning dawned bright and merciless.
By mid-morning, the heat already pressed heavily upon the farm. The air hung thick and still, not a breath of wind stirred.
Ruth stood beside a pair of wooden washtubs in the backyard with her sleeves rolled past her elbows and several strands of chestnut hair had escaped her braid and clung damply to her neck. She was light-headed, having not eaten any breakfast, and a sick feeling sat in her stomach.
The water in the tubs had already grown warm beneath the sun as she scrubbed a shirt against the washboard. Soap stung the small cracks in her fingers as perspiration trickled down her back. The muscles in her arms trembled; she was exhausted, but she did not stop.
Nearby, clean linens fluttered weakly from a clothesline stretched between two posts. The drought had turned the yard brittle and yellow. Even the shade of the oak tree offered little relief from the heat.
Ruth dipped another garment into the water. But as she did, the sound of approaching hoofbeats made her pause. Few visitors came to the Turner farm anymore.
She looked up to see a rider was approaching along the dirt road and her stomach tightened immediately. Even from a distance, she recognized him.
It was Gideon Walker.
He was the most revered, or feared, man in the county depending on who you asked. As he drew nearer, Ruth found herself gripping the wet shirt a little tighter, her heart racing.
What was he doing here? What did he want?
Gideon Walker was the sort of man people lowered their voices to discuss. He was tall and broad-shouldered and he carried himself with the confidence of someone accustomed to getting whatever he wanted. His dark hair was carefully combed and his beard neatly trimmed. A gold watch chain glinted across his vest. Everything about him spoke of wealth, but there was something else in his eyes. Something cold and calculating, almost predatory.
Ruth had seen men become visibly nervous in his presence and she had heard stories whispered after church. Stories of families losing farms, of debtors beaten and threats delivered behind closed doors.
No one ever spoke too loudly because none wanted Gideon Walker’s attention. Unfortunately, it seemed she already had it. His gaze settled on her as he dismounted and a slow smile touched his lips. “Miss Turner.”
She forced herself to nod. “Mr. Walker.”
He glanced toward the house. “Is your father home?”
Before Ruth could answer, the screen door creaked open and Frank appeared in the doorway. The sight of him would have been almost comical under different circumstances. His shirt was wrinkled and his face pale and sweaty. One hand gripped the doorframe to keep him upright. The previous night’s drinking was written all over him.
Walker looked thoroughly unimpressed. “Frank.”
Frank swallowed visibly. “M-Mr. Walker.”
Walker reached into his coat and withdrew a folded document. “I’ve come regarding your debt.”
Frank’s face drained of what little color it had. Ruth looked between the two men with her stomach in knots. She knew her father owed money, but she did not know how much.
Walker unfolded the paper. “The amount currently owed stands at eight hundred and forty-two dollars.”
Ruth’s breath caught. The number was staggering… Impossible.
Frank laughed weakly, a desperate sound. “You know I don’t have that kind of money.”
Walker folded the paper again. “I know.”
The heat seemed to intensify in that moment. Even the birds had gone silent.
Frank rubbed a trembling hand over his face. “The livestock’s gone.” He gestured vaguely toward the property. “I got nothing left but this house—”
Ruth stepped forward without thinking. All she knew was they couldn’t lose the farm, too. If they did they would have nothing and that idea terrified her more than any amount of work could.
“I can earn it,” she said. “I sew. I mend. I’ll take more work. We can repay you.” Even as she spoke, she knew it was hopeless. Eight hundred dollars might as well have been eight thousand.
Walker regarded her thoughtfully and for what seemed like an eternity, he said nothing. His eyes moved slowly over her face, her hair and down her body, then back again.
The look in his eyes made Ruth uneasy. Then, he smiled. “Perhaps there could be another arrangement.”
A chill slid down her spine despite the heat.
“What arrangement?” Frank asked.
Walker kept his gaze fixed on Ruth. “I will forgive the debt.”
Frank straightened as hope flashed across his face.
“In exchange for your daughter,” Walker finished.
The world seemed to stop as Ruth stared at him; surely she had misunderstood. “You mean—”
“I will take Miss Turner as my wife.”
The words landed like a physical blow, knocking the air out of her lungs for a moment. “No,” she breathed.
Walker’s expression darkened as Ruth’s pulse thundered. Every story she’d ever heard about Gideon Walker rushed through her mind. The cruelty and the violence. The fear he inspired.
“I said, no,” Ruth repeated, her voice stronger now. She would rather live in poverty, would rather starve. She would rather—
“Done.” The single word came from behind her as Ruth whirled around to find her father smiling, relief shining on his face. “I accept.”
The blood drained from Ruth’s face. “Father—”
“The debt’s settled.” His voice sounded eager, as though a great burden had suddenly vanished.
Ruth stared at him in disbelief. “You can’t mean it.”
Frank avoided her eyes. Walker, however, looked entirely satisfied.
The reality settled heavily over her. Neither man had asked what she wanted. Instead, one had asked for her and the other had accepted. As though she were nothing more than a piece of property being traded between them. Her stomach twisted.
“Father,” she said, taking a step toward him. “Please.”
At last, he looked up. For one foolish second, hope flared inside Ruth, but it was fleeting. “What’s done is done,” he muttered.
Walker adjusted his gloves with deliberate care. “When shall we set the date?” he asked.
Frank cleared his throat. “The sooner the better.”
Walker nodded. “I will make the arrangements and return in a few days.”
With that, he turned and walked away. Ruth watched him go for a moment before turning back to her father, but he would not meet her eyes. Instead, he turned and disappeared into the house.
Ruth was left alone. The hot Texas sun beat down upon the yard and yet, she felt frozen. As though invisible walls were closing around her. Her gaze dropped to the wet shirt still clenched in her hands. Water dripped slowly from the fabric onto the dry earth below. One drop at a time.
She thought of her prayer the night before. Whatever comes, help me meet it with courage. A shiver ran through her. Because for the first time in her life, she truly feared what tomorrow might bring.
Turner Ranch — Devil’s Hollow, Texas
Summer 1870
The rest of the day passed in a haze.
Ruth moved through her chores as she always did, but nothing felt ordinary anymore. Every task seemed distant, unreal, as though she were watching someone else’s life. She hung the last of the washing on the line, carried water from the well and swept the kitchen floor. Fed the old barn cat that still lingered around the property despite there being little left to hunt.
All the while, one thought circled through her mind, like something from a nightmare that she never woke up from. Yet every time she tried to dismiss it, she remembered her father’s face. The relief in his eyes and the eagerness. The way he had accepted without hesitation, without even looking at her. How could he do this to me? Did he really hate me that much?
The thought made her stomach knot. Several times, she approached her father’s bedroom door. Each time, she stopped.
The house remained silent except for the rumbling snores coming from within. He had gone straight back to bed after Walker left. Whether from drink or shame, she did not know. Perhaps both.
By afternoon, the heat had become nearly unbearable. Sunlight poured through the kitchen windows in bright golden squares. The air smelled of dust and drying laundry.
Ruth kneaded bread dough at the table, pressing her hands into the soft mixture harder than necessary. Flour coated her fingers as her braid came loose, strands sticking to her damp cheeks. Still, her thoughts refused to settle and the gnawing sensation in her stomach would not quiet.
She couldn’t marry him. The very idea made her feel physically ill. She would not do it. Surely, her father would listen if she spoke to him calmly.
Surely, once he was sober… but even as the thought formed, she knew better. The man who had agreed to give her away wasn’t drunk enough to misunderstand what he was doing. That hurt most of all.
By dusk, shadows stretched long across the yard and the heat finally began to ease. Ruth stood at the kitchen window watching the sky turn shades of gold and pink. Then, she heard movement down the hallway and her heart jumped.
The bedroom door opened. A moment later, her father emerged. He looked rough. His hair stood in every direction and dark circles shadowed his eyes. But he was awake and sober enough.
Without a word, he crossed the room toward the front door, shrugging into his coat.
Ruth moved immediately. “Father.”
He stopped, only because she stood directly in his path. “What?” The word came sharp and impatient.
She clasped her hands together. “Please. We need to talk.”
His expression darkened. “I’ve got nothing to say.”
“I do.”
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